What would you do with it?
What I mean is: what if you had no responsibility other than making yourself happy? No job, no need to worry about money, no ill family members including yourself. Nothing but time, time to think about what to do with your life, then do it.
Would you spend that time stressing out about finding a job?
Would you occupy that time looking for an occupation which is going to numb you again, make you believe you’ve found your rhythm once more?